Ventin On Relationships...

Well, u all knew it was coming. lol

No blog is complete without venting on relationships. Whether they just be thoughts, personal life experiences, hopes, dreams or opinions... Relationships seem to be on everyone's top 10 list of shit to talk about.

And I guess while listening to some bitter ass songs today about having loved & lost, old feelings surfaced and I began to think about this thing we call "L.O.V.E." and why we allow it to come in and destroy our lives. LoL

It's like, we long for it... we want it... we crave that shit. Why? I'll never know. And even for those few people who, like myself, never go looking for it... that shit creeps up on u and sends u for a loop. Like, I don't get it... I don't see how you can just be single & happy as hell one day, just loving life... then outta the blue some idiot bumps into you and changes your life as you know it, forever.

Yea the first few weeks/months are bliss. Ecstacy and Euphoria to the 10th degree and you think you're in love. Hell you may actually be in love. You just wanna be everything to this person... you wanna love him/her(unisex, no homo) with everything in you and just never let go. Then one day she or he gonna flip the script and stop taking your calls, never responds to txt, or sleeps with your best friend or some other trifilin shit and your world is crushed. Like, not crushed, but CRUSHED. And now you're left with a cold cracked hollow piece of shit that you once called a heart.

And it's like, I don't think people today are anything like the people of years ago. The people that actually realized that relationships aren't all about YOU, but they're about two individuals working together for a greater good & peace of mind. They go around acting like you don't matter, doin whatever with whoever and coming back to you like nothing's different. And when the bitch get caught, she/he flips the script on you like YOU were somehow WRONG for giving a damn about them.

Like, I don't get it... I believed in everything ya did & everything you said. When you'd say "I love you" and when you said I was different from other niggas... Like I actually stood out & I just wasn't another DICK. I believed in all of that... But maybe that was my fault... I dunno.

I used to wonder why people would say a person has wronged them in the past and that's why they don't deal with relationships now. The reasons they say they wouldn't trust anyone. I guess I understand now. There are a lot of assholes in the world that really don't give a fuck about you. Nobody is really required to give two shits about you or your feelings. So watch out for yourself first and foremost cuz no bitch/nigga is gonna do it for you. Real talk.

So next time you're with somebody and shit seems too good to be true... just remember:

IT IS 2008. TWO THOUSAND. AND EIGHT.

If it looks/sounds too good to be true, it probably is. You can't always trust the people you want to. Not saying to be an ass or walk around with a chip on your shoulder mad at the world... just stop bein so nieve and beliveing everything someone tells you... I dunno I'm kinda rambling now and it's become more of a personal venting post, lol, but it's MY blog and I'll be pissed if I wanna be... lol. But yea... relationships and love and shit is for the birds. Fuck that shit... I'm good.

Heh maybe I'm trippin... maybe it's just some miscommunication goin on between the two sexes... Either way, just somethin to ponder. Vent session over...


Disclaimer: This isn't about any particular person... more or less just about experiences I've had/experiences of friends or shit I've noticed... So nobody ask who I'm talkin about or gettin pissed off thinking it's you. Unless of course you actually did some fucked up shit to me... lol. But it's ok, I forgive you for it. LoL

WTF Were We Thinking....

Like I know this is random.

And it probably doesn't make any sense.

But I Would REALLY like to know what we were thinking when we all decided to happily wear clothes that read FUBU across the front. Like, that shit has me like, hella perplexed.

Nigga, it was called FU. BU.

!!!!!!FUBU!!!!!

Nigga, that is like two letters away from BUBU(Booboo)!!!! C'mon now! I for one, rebuke my child hood warddrobe in the name of JESUS!!! Cause I KNOW Jesus was lookin down in shame. He done taught us better... lol. Look @ That Jersey. LOOK AT IT!!!!! And folks was walkin around sportin that with pride. PRIDE NIGGA. LOL. Glad Them Days Is Looooong Gone...

But yea... I just had to get that out. I'm overly ashamed. But oh well. I was 10-14. I didn't know any better... lol. So I think I get a pass.

I'm goin 2 bed now. Later Bloggers... lol

Being A Kid In The 90's Was Cool Because...

WE HAD THE FUCKING POWER RANGERS!!!!!!!

If u don't remember this, I don't know wtf you were doing with your life. I really don't. I mean... the ORIGINAL Power Rangers. Jason, Kimberly, Billy, Trini(R.I.P.) & Zack? Come on now... Nothin beats the original rangers! Especially when Tommy got on board, and everyone just knew Tommy & Kimberly were meant to get married & have lil ranger babies & shit.

Man... good times! I leave u with the VERY first Episode of Power Rangers which originally aired on August 28th, 1993 on Fox 11.

P.S. I defiently just had a Double Double Animal Style w/ Xtra Pickles & No Tomatoes... French Fries & a Medium Root Beer. I'm In Heaven... lol. Goodnight.

Stripping DJs...? Had 2 Take A Piss, Nigga Had A Curl Reunion

Well readers... It's about 3:35am and I'm sitting on my coach. Bored... lol. Should be asleep, but we all know Brandon D. Hayes is an *INSOMNIAC* right? LoL

Just walked in from like the longest Saturday I've had in a LONG time. Where do I begin? Well let's see...

I knew I had to work today, but Imy was having a kickback... as was Richard. And I KNEW I had to show up to at least one of these events. I end up leaving work early to go grab Ryan and go to Imy's since Rich ain't answerin his fone. (Come 2 think of it, I just aimed him askin what happened but he's yet to respond. OH WELL!)

So I got kinda "sick"(lol) and left work early to go home and show, get dressed & pick up Ryan. We get to Imy's and see all tha homies... Even ran into some of my fav PALI folks. Ammo was there... as was Ayinde & Donovan and others. But like... We have a problem.

The DJ, who is also a *STRIPPER* had a "prior" engagement and was running late. And niggas was arriving gettin impatient and shit. So in the mean time, blunts was rolled, alcohol was poured and niggas just started choppin it up in front of Imy's crib.

Stripper/DJ calls & cancels and leaves Imy like, high & dry. She's pissed, people came to party and basically left. It was kinda sad how that happened, but the few of us that was left did the usual and took it to the living room. Jokes for days.

And anyone who knows Imy & crew pretty much know about the kickbacks in the living room... Fun times. Except for her bringing up me getting drunk in TN & trying to rape a dog named London... lol. Oh but we all love the whole "Had to take a piss, Nigga had a curl" references. LoL

Then crazy trips down Crenshaw for some jack in the box, on E... madness. Just walked in the crib and probably finna pass out. But before I do, I leave this video in reminder to Nov. '07's Nashville trip to visit Lauren. Remember this folks? It was goin DOWN! LoL

Night Folks...

Thinkin Out Loud...

Wassup & welcome to my blog. I've decided I'm gonna start posting here daily and talkin to yall and shit. Juss so yall can keep up with the inner workings of mah mind. Somedays I'll ramble about nothing. Other times I'll juss state what I'm thinkin. Somedays I'll say how my day went. All depends on how *I* feel cuz its MY blog.

Get Wit ;) lol

Well Incase Some Of You Didn't Know, I've Been Thinking of Moving Away To College. I Dunno If Its Gonna Happen or Not But The Odds Are Gettin Slightly Better. I Was Accepted To A School In Texas And I'm Probably Gonna Go Ahead & Go.

Like... Besides The Fact That I've ALWAYS Wanted to Attend An HBCU, I Feel Like Nothin's Keepin Me Here In LA. There's Very Little Here In LA That Is Worth Me Staying. Over The Past 6 or 7 Years I Think Its Safe To Say I've Seen More Shit Than Anyone Should Have 2 See or Go Through. And Juss... I Dunno.

Don't Really Wanna Turn This Into a Rant or Complaint But, I Dunno How I Feel Anymore. I Was Pretty Happy To Get My 1st Acceptance Letter But Now I Feel Like I May Be Punkin Out. Like My Reasons For Leaving Are No Longer To Get An Education or a Black College Experience. Its Just Startin To Feel Like I'm Runnin... Runnin From Everything & Everyone. Instead of Staying And Facing My Problems Like A MAN.

Either Case, I Don't Feel Like I Currently Possess What I Need To Face Those Problems. And Maybe If I Go, Start Fresh & Become The Man I'm Meant To Be On My Own Terms, I Can Actually Overcome The Hurdles That Are Blocking My Progress Here...

I Dunno... Just Had To Ramble A Bit. Get That Off My Chest. Been Thinkin About That For A Minute Now. But Anyway, Welcome 2 Tha Blog Folks. Catch Yall Laterz...