Damn.

Only 20 Years Old Man.

20 Fuckin Years Ago.

Never New Life Could Sux So Much. In Such A Brief Amount Of Time.

Different Kinda Pain. Totally Uncharted Waters. Gotta Grow Up. Quick.

I Love Somebody A Whole Lot. And I Hope You Never Forget It.

And Yea I'm Depressed. As Hell.

Hopefully 2morrow's Concert Will Put Me In A Good Mood. If Only For A Few Hours.

But Yea... Life. Sux.

Thoughts

OK, it's definently been a long week. And it's only Thursday. lol. It's like 3am and I was about 2 go 2 sleep but I decided to stay up a lil longer and give a blog cuz I haven't been on here in a few days or whatever. Anyways, moving on.

I had a long talk wit somebody who's really important to me today. Somebody I love with everything in me. And this talk has made me feel a lot better about who I am and the things going on in our lives right now. I got a better understanding of whats going on between us & I think that everythings gonna be alright.

Off of that shit, tonight was my last nite of work till AT LEAST Sunday or Monday. Which is awesome. Cause I was for damn sure getting sick of Marshalls and them lame ass customers. It's just been hell and I can't wait till I find somethin better and give them niggas the deuces. Marshalls can seriously blow me right about now. Like, real shit. lol

KANYE WEST!!! Saturday June 7th, 2008 @ Staples Center!!!!

I can't wait! Going with Lauren, my favorite scorpio ever. She introduced me to the wonderful world of concerts. She took me to my first concert ever which was the "Late Registration Tour" wit Kanye, Keyshia Cole & Fantasia... so this is sorta like a homecoming. I hear it's the hottest concert around and one of the best in years so I'm hella excited. Rihanna, Lupe & N.E.R.D will be there so that's pretty hot. Looking forward to it. I'll keep yall updated with how that turns out & such...

Oh. I met sexiness recently. The sexiest thing I've ever seen. And I love it. LOL

Goodnite!

Its Just One Of Them Days...

You know what. This sux. After a pretty pheonomenal week, Saturday gets here and I'm really really really irritated. And I have 0 clue why. I mean, I had a bad nights sleep but that's over & done with. After an initial bump, my morning went fine. But for whatever reason I juss feel stuck. Like, today is wacker than wack. It seems like the Bad Mood Energies from the depths of Hell have surfaced and decided 2 take refuge around me.

Damn.

I juss need a reason to smile real quick. Oh wait, hold on just a second. I think I found that reason...

I'll Be Off Work In 2 Hours!!!

And I don't have to return until Monday, which is still too soon. And its a Holiday. But shit, bring on the Holiday pay! Then I work again on Tuesday, but I think I'll be calling off... Six Flags & X2 are callin my name. Hmmm... then my Birthday's next Sunday (Big 20!) & Kanye West The Following Saturday. Maybe I do have some good things to look forward to. Lifes looking right in a major way right now. Minus one thing that's leaving me for a bit... hopefully it returns...

Four Simple Words That Completely Ruined My Day...

Maybe I should slow it down a bit. I dunno. This is a new situation. Something totally different than I'm used to. Not gonna go into detail but... I haven't been this confused in quite some time. Is this a waste of time... decent investment? Shit I don't know. I just wish these answers were easier to come by. I wish the future was more apparent and obvious. I don't like guessin games & I've never been one who knew how to "paitently wait".

Four words have pretty much thrown my whole day & psyche off. But I mean, I'm a big boy. I can take care of myself. And whatever happens after this moment. I will be 100% responsible for it's outcome, good or bad. Nobody to blame or thank but myself. And I'm cool with that. It's just this feeling of uncertainty. Not knowing whats gonna happen. It's all slightly overwhelming. Don't know what I'm gonna do just yet. But... I hope whatever I decide, I won't have to look back 6months from now pissed off thinking, "wtf did u do that for".

Only time will tell.

Life. Love. Insects. Etc. LOL

So... I have a feeling that my life is definently about to change in a major way. Life's funny that way. In the way that it never stops, something new is always happening. Whether welcomed or unwelcomed you can't stop living it. And it's just a trip. Anyways, May 20th 2008 was a good day. Not quite sure why... but it was. It made me think. And yall know I like to think! lol

But yea... I'm a pretty happy camper right now. Only thing that would make me happier is hurrying up into June. My Birthday is on the 1st! Then Lauren & I are hittin up that Kanyizzle Concert on the 7th! Good Times! Pretty excited about my life right now. So I mean, stay tuned & I'll keep yall posted blogers! Laterz!

STUPID. STUPID. STUPID.

So I've Decided That... Dating Is Stupid. Like, Really Stupid. Nobody's On The Same Page. Everybody Is Trying To "Run Game" And Treat The Relationship (Or Lack Thereof) Like It's A Fuckin Game Of Chess. Why Can't We All Be Real, Be Vurnable & Just Be Honest Without Ourselves & Each Other About What We Really Want & Expect. Things Would Be So Much Easier This Way....



But U Know What? I've Decided That I Don't Want Nor Need A GF. I'm A Nice Romantic Kinda Nigga Tho. I Need Somebody 2 Hold. Somebody 2 Tell My Dreams & My Fears To. I Like 2 Feel Needed/Wanted. So I've Decided....





I NEED A PUPPY.



That's Right. A Puppy. Puppies Are Always There For You & They Loyal 2 A Fault. Got My Back 100%. I'm Goin Dog Shoppin Next Week. Can't Wait. LoL

Iron Man, Etc.

So Yea... Lauren's Back. Woo Hoo!!!!

Saw Iron Man. It Was The Shit Point Blank. Well, The Parts I Stayed Awake For. LoL

I Guess It's Cool To Post Up In The 24hr Fitness Parking Lot & Stare @ Folks Now?

Darren Isn't Too Smart.

And It's 3:30am. I'm Tired.

Nite Folks. LoL