Its Just One Of Them Days...

You know what. This sux. After a pretty pheonomenal week, Saturday gets here and I'm really really really irritated. And I have 0 clue why. I mean, I had a bad nights sleep but that's over & done with. After an initial bump, my morning went fine. But for whatever reason I juss feel stuck. Like, today is wacker than wack. It seems like the Bad Mood Energies from the depths of Hell have surfaced and decided 2 take refuge around me.

Damn.

I juss need a reason to smile real quick. Oh wait, hold on just a second. I think I found that reason...

I'll Be Off Work In 2 Hours!!!

And I don't have to return until Monday, which is still too soon. And its a Holiday. But shit, bring on the Holiday pay! Then I work again on Tuesday, but I think I'll be calling off... Six Flags & X2 are callin my name. Hmmm... then my Birthday's next Sunday (Big 20!) & Kanye West The Following Saturday. Maybe I do have some good things to look forward to. Lifes looking right in a major way right now. Minus one thing that's leaving me for a bit... hopefully it returns...

Four Simple Words That Completely Ruined My Day...

Maybe I should slow it down a bit. I dunno. This is a new situation. Something totally different than I'm used to. Not gonna go into detail but... I haven't been this confused in quite some time. Is this a waste of time... decent investment? Shit I don't know. I just wish these answers were easier to come by. I wish the future was more apparent and obvious. I don't like guessin games & I've never been one who knew how to "paitently wait".

Four words have pretty much thrown my whole day & psyche off. But I mean, I'm a big boy. I can take care of myself. And whatever happens after this moment. I will be 100% responsible for it's outcome, good or bad. Nobody to blame or thank but myself. And I'm cool with that. It's just this feeling of uncertainty. Not knowing whats gonna happen. It's all slightly overwhelming. Don't know what I'm gonna do just yet. But... I hope whatever I decide, I won't have to look back 6months from now pissed off thinking, "wtf did u do that for".

Only time will tell.

Life. Love. Insects. Etc. LOL

So... I have a feeling that my life is definently about to change in a major way. Life's funny that way. In the way that it never stops, something new is always happening. Whether welcomed or unwelcomed you can't stop living it. And it's just a trip. Anyways, May 20th 2008 was a good day. Not quite sure why... but it was. It made me think. And yall know I like to think! lol

But yea... I'm a pretty happy camper right now. Only thing that would make me happier is hurrying up into June. My Birthday is on the 1st! Then Lauren & I are hittin up that Kanyizzle Concert on the 7th! Good Times! Pretty excited about my life right now. So I mean, stay tuned & I'll keep yall posted blogers! Laterz!

STUPID. STUPID. STUPID.

So I've Decided That... Dating Is Stupid. Like, Really Stupid. Nobody's On The Same Page. Everybody Is Trying To "Run Game" And Treat The Relationship (Or Lack Thereof) Like It's A Fuckin Game Of Chess. Why Can't We All Be Real, Be Vurnable & Just Be Honest Without Ourselves & Each Other About What We Really Want & Expect. Things Would Be So Much Easier This Way....



But U Know What? I've Decided That I Don't Want Nor Need A GF. I'm A Nice Romantic Kinda Nigga Tho. I Need Somebody 2 Hold. Somebody 2 Tell My Dreams & My Fears To. I Like 2 Feel Needed/Wanted. So I've Decided....





I NEED A PUPPY.



That's Right. A Puppy. Puppies Are Always There For You & They Loyal 2 A Fault. Got My Back 100%. I'm Goin Dog Shoppin Next Week. Can't Wait. LoL

Iron Man, Etc.

So Yea... Lauren's Back. Woo Hoo!!!!

Saw Iron Man. It Was The Shit Point Blank. Well, The Parts I Stayed Awake For. LoL

I Guess It's Cool To Post Up In The 24hr Fitness Parking Lot & Stare @ Folks Now?

Darren Isn't Too Smart.

And It's 3:30am. I'm Tired.

Nite Folks. LoL

Ventin On Relationships...

Well, u all knew it was coming. lol

No blog is complete without venting on relationships. Whether they just be thoughts, personal life experiences, hopes, dreams or opinions... Relationships seem to be on everyone's top 10 list of shit to talk about.

And I guess while listening to some bitter ass songs today about having loved & lost, old feelings surfaced and I began to think about this thing we call "L.O.V.E." and why we allow it to come in and destroy our lives. LoL

It's like, we long for it... we want it... we crave that shit. Why? I'll never know. And even for those few people who, like myself, never go looking for it... that shit creeps up on u and sends u for a loop. Like, I don't get it... I don't see how you can just be single & happy as hell one day, just loving life... then outta the blue some idiot bumps into you and changes your life as you know it, forever.

Yea the first few weeks/months are bliss. Ecstacy and Euphoria to the 10th degree and you think you're in love. Hell you may actually be in love. You just wanna be everything to this person... you wanna love him/her(unisex, no homo) with everything in you and just never let go. Then one day she or he gonna flip the script and stop taking your calls, never responds to txt, or sleeps with your best friend or some other trifilin shit and your world is crushed. Like, not crushed, but CRUSHED. And now you're left with a cold cracked hollow piece of shit that you once called a heart.

And it's like, I don't think people today are anything like the people of years ago. The people that actually realized that relationships aren't all about YOU, but they're about two individuals working together for a greater good & peace of mind. They go around acting like you don't matter, doin whatever with whoever and coming back to you like nothing's different. And when the bitch get caught, she/he flips the script on you like YOU were somehow WRONG for giving a damn about them.

Like, I don't get it... I believed in everything ya did & everything you said. When you'd say "I love you" and when you said I was different from other niggas... Like I actually stood out & I just wasn't another DICK. I believed in all of that... But maybe that was my fault... I dunno.

I used to wonder why people would say a person has wronged them in the past and that's why they don't deal with relationships now. The reasons they say they wouldn't trust anyone. I guess I understand now. There are a lot of assholes in the world that really don't give a fuck about you. Nobody is really required to give two shits about you or your feelings. So watch out for yourself first and foremost cuz no bitch/nigga is gonna do it for you. Real talk.

So next time you're with somebody and shit seems too good to be true... just remember:

IT IS 2008. TWO THOUSAND. AND EIGHT.

If it looks/sounds too good to be true, it probably is. You can't always trust the people you want to. Not saying to be an ass or walk around with a chip on your shoulder mad at the world... just stop bein so nieve and beliveing everything someone tells you... I dunno I'm kinda rambling now and it's become more of a personal venting post, lol, but it's MY blog and I'll be pissed if I wanna be... lol. But yea... relationships and love and shit is for the birds. Fuck that shit... I'm good.

Heh maybe I'm trippin... maybe it's just some miscommunication goin on between the two sexes... Either way, just somethin to ponder. Vent session over...


Disclaimer: This isn't about any particular person... more or less just about experiences I've had/experiences of friends or shit I've noticed... So nobody ask who I'm talkin about or gettin pissed off thinking it's you. Unless of course you actually did some fucked up shit to me... lol. But it's ok, I forgive you for it. LoL

WTF Were We Thinking....

Like I know this is random.

And it probably doesn't make any sense.

But I Would REALLY like to know what we were thinking when we all decided to happily wear clothes that read FUBU across the front. Like, that shit has me like, hella perplexed.

Nigga, it was called FU. BU.

!!!!!!FUBU!!!!!

Nigga, that is like two letters away from BUBU(Booboo)!!!! C'mon now! I for one, rebuke my child hood warddrobe in the name of JESUS!!! Cause I KNOW Jesus was lookin down in shame. He done taught us better... lol. Look @ That Jersey. LOOK AT IT!!!!! And folks was walkin around sportin that with pride. PRIDE NIGGA. LOL. Glad Them Days Is Looooong Gone...

But yea... I just had to get that out. I'm overly ashamed. But oh well. I was 10-14. I didn't know any better... lol. So I think I get a pass.

I'm goin 2 bed now. Later Bloggers... lol