Invincible

So I'm Pretty Much Having The Best Night I've Had In Forever. I'm Just Hella Happy & I Don't Have The Slightest Clue Why. Man Its Actually Quite Incredible. Indescrible Even... I'd Say I'm Content, But How I'm Feelin Right Now Surpasses "Content" In Every Sense.

Woke Up & Washed My Car. Cleaned Up The House. Got My Haircut. Saw My Grandma & Aunties Today. Chilled Wit Sum Friends & My Bros.
Saw My BUDDY... ;)
All In All It Was A REALLY Good Day. But What I Don't Understand Is What Makes Today So Much Better Than Other Days That Went Smoothly? I Dunno. Maybe Its Best I Don't Understand. Asking Too Many Questions Of A Good Thing Is One Definite Way Of Killin The Mood.

So I'll Just Say Spending The Last Couple Hours With U... Then Talkin Wit Cha For Another Hour Before U Went 2 Sleep On Me(lol) Had Somethin 2 Do With Why I'm Feelin So Good.
Threw My I-Pod In My Ears & Now I'm Juss Chillin. And Anybody Who Knows Me Knows Music Is Pretty Much The Thing That Keeps Me Going. Slow Jams After Hours Just Puts Me In My Zone...
Can't Explain It. But Either Way. I'm Really Happy At The Moment.
So I'm Gonna Go Enjoy It For Another Hour Or 2 Before Bed....

So I'll Get @ U Guyz Later.
Night Bloggers!

Too Much Time On My Hands... OK, Maybe Just An Hour.

Well... In The Absence Of An Active Internet Connection, I've Been M.I.A. Or Whatever From This Blogger Shit. Don't Be Mad At Me, Blame Mah Mama For Not Payin The Damn Bill On Time. I Digress...

Anyway... I Dunno. I Been Doin Sum Heavy Thinking Lately. Just Thoughts Of My Life That I Don't Have The Slightest Idea What To Do With. I Got The Biggest Let Down Of My ENTIRE LIFE This Summer. Had A Dream Since I Was 5... And It Just Pretty Much Killed Me That It'll Never Happen.

"Its A Trip You Know. When You're A Kid, You See The Life You Want, And It NEVER Crosses Your Mind That Its Not Gonna Turn Out That Way."
-Love & Basketball

That Line Hits Me Everytime I Watch That Movie. Cuz Its So Damn True. When I Was 10, You Coulda Never Told Me My Life Would Be The Way It Is Now. I Woulda Never Believed It... Not Saying My Life Is So Damn Bad Cuz There Are People Who Are Way Worse Off Than I. But I Dunno. I Just Had All These Goals For Myself. And I've Basically Not Come Close To Attaining Them.

Like, I Dunno. When Shit Goes Wrong In Life, People(Myself Included) Tend To Look For Every & Anything They Can Blame For The Reasons Of Their Failures. When In All Actuality, They've Pointed A Finger At Everything Except The 1 Place Where The Blame Actually Reside. With Yourself. Like, I've Been Thinking. Can I Really Blame Anyone BESIDES Myself That Shit Didn't Happen In My Life The Way I Wanted It 2? Should I Blame The Employers That Didn't Accept My Applications? My Parents For Not Being There For Me The Way I Needed Them To Be? The Teachers For Not Passing Me? The Kids In School That Made Me Second Guess Myself & My Worth As A Person?

Naw... Its Really My Fault. I Didn't Sell Myself Hard Enough To Those Employers, THAT'S Why I Didn't Get A Call Back. I Didn't Believe In Myself Enough To Overcompensate For Where My Parents Didn't Believe In Me. I Didn't Pass My Classes Cuz I Didn't Care To Do Anything But Sleep In Class. And Its Definitely My Fault I Let The Attitudes Of Stupid Children Influence The Way I Felt About Myself In Junior High.

But As Of August 5th, 2008 I've Grown Up. I Gotta Man Up And Make Shit Happen For Me. Nobody's Obligated To Help Me In Any Way, Shape Or Form. Its All On Me And If I Continue To Post Up And Wait For My Clueless Parents To Assist Me In Becoming Successful, I'll Probably Be Sleepin On This Couch For Another 15 Years... Ain't Gon Happen Folks!

So With All That Said... Its Time For Me To Get Off My Ass & Go Get Thangs Done In The World. Big Ups To Blogger For Giving Me This Outlet To Express Myself From Time To Time. Writing My Thoughts Out Is Hella Therapeutic... So I'll Catch Yall Later Bloggers. Stay Up & Heed My Words. Get Up And Do Somethin Constructive Today. We In Our Primes & Gotta Get This Shit Poppin! 2morrow Ain't Promised So Get Up & Out & Make It Happen 2day!

Deuces!

(In Absence Of My Laptop, Todays Blog Is Brought To You By My T-Mobile Sidekick Lx! Available At All Major T-Mobile Carriers! LoL I'm A Fuckin Dork...)

Better Left Unsaid.

Its The Worst Kinda Pain You Could Ever Feel.

I Don't Think A Bullet Wound, Broke Limb, Child Birth Or Gettin Chopped With A Machette Could Feel Worse...

It Eats At You... Tears At Your Soul... Stabs You In The Center Of Your Chest...
Unyielding, Unrelenting Pain...

You Even Bleed... Yea, You Bleed. And Bleed... And Bleed... And Bleed.

Usually After A Certain Amount Of Blood Loss You Expect To Die. Free Of Suffering. Freed Of Pain & Misery... You'll Eventually Feel Peace.

But No, Not This Time. This Bleeding Isn't The Same... Cuz See, When It Comes To Emotional Pain, You Bleed From Your Eyes... You Bleed Tears...
And It Sux...

Cuz Your Tears Won't Let You Die.

Anti Matter...

I Dunno. I'm Just Writing Tonight For Really No Reason Whatsoever. I Dunno What I Wanna Talk About, But That Doesn't Really Matter. I'm Just Gonna Talk.

So Anyways, My Job Sux. I'm Ready To Quit. Marshalls Can Go And Shove A Stick Up It's Ass For All I Care. It's Time To Move On To Bigger & Better Things.
Just Wish One Of These Bigger/Better Things Would Give A Nigga A Call With A Job Offer.
I Digress.

Oh, Yea... Two Days Ago My First Pet Rabbit, Missy, Was Brutally Murdered By My Brother Braylon. He "Claims" He Didn't See The Rabbit Dart Towards The Garage As He Was Closing The Door And My Poor Bunny Was Trapped Underneath A Garage Door Suffering For The Better Part of 7Hours. Her Upper Body Trapped Inside The Garage & Her Backside Trapped Outside Of It.

I Found Her @ 3am And Relieved The Pressure Of The Garage Door From Her Back, But Clearly I Was Too Late. Her Back Was Broken & She Had Lost All Control Of The Lower Half Of Her Body. She Died Within 30mins Of Me Finding Her. It Was Kinda Sad.

My Little Bro Was Pissed & Thru A Damn Temper Tantrum, Which Prompted My Mother To Go Buy Him A New Rabbit. But No, Not Only Did He Come Home With A New Rabbit... He Came Home With TWO New Rabbits. Ellie & Grayson. Well, Those Were Their Names @ The Shelter... But I'm Moving Towards Babs & Buster. Or Bugs & Lola. Dunno Yet.

Either Way, I Don't Like These New Rabbits As Much. Missy Took To The Family In A Day. These Bastards Have Been Here Since Friday & Are Some Lazy, Scary Bitch Made Rabbits. They Can Take They Asses Back To The Adoption Home With Them Saddity, Stuck Up Attitudes. They Don't "Fraternize" With Humans I Guess. Uppity Bitches.

Anyway, I Guess I'm Gonna Head 2 Bead Now. Kinda Upset... A Lot's Been On My Mind Lately And For Once I Really Don't Have The Answer. I've Got A Couple Options Tho... I Think.

A) Move On From A Couple People.
B) Continue These Awkward Friendships.
C) Cut Em Off Completely (Yes, This Is Different Than [A])
or
D) Go All Out & Stregnthen These Bonds Tighter Than They Were Before.

There's Probably A Few Extra Options Available For This Situation, Which I Don't Feel Like Explaining. But Those 4 Are The Main Choices... Any Other Options Would Be Sub Branches Of The Above 4... I Think. Fuck It, I've Spent Too Much Energy On The Situation As It Is...

Anyways, I'm Hittin The Sack. It's Been A Long Day. One More Day Of Work & I Have The Whole Week Off Till Saturday To Relax. Yay Me.

Later Bloggers!

Flashback...

I Wish I Could Say I Was Alright.



I Wish I Could Smile An Authentic Smile Right Now.



I Wish That... I Wish That...



I Dunno WTF I'm Wishing For.



I Wasn't Even Gonna Blog On The Topic But I'm Upset.



My World Came Crashing Down In Seconds Juss Over 7 Hours Ago.



And I Dunno WTF To Say Or How To Feel.



Now I Feel Paranoid. Insecure. Vurnerable To Defeat.



Juss Not A Good Feeling. And I Haven't Been Able To Shake It.



U Lied. U Lied. U Lied. U Lied. U Lied.

U FUCKING LIED

And I Dunno WTF To Do With This Situation.

Just Add Another Fucked Up Page To The Story Of "My Life".

Everytime I Picture U Two Together In My Mind I Fuckin Cringe.

Body Begins To Ache. Shut Mah Eyes. Just Kinda Collapse. Can't Even Finish My Fucking Meal.

I'm Sad. Angry. Upset. Distraught. Bewildered. And Heartbroken.

And It's All Because Of You...

Welcome To H-Town

So Yea... I'm Definently Out Of Cali For The Next Six Days. Mini Vacation To Visit The Fam Until Monday. Fresh Off The Plane, I'm Chillin In Tha Hotel Room Wit Mah Two KooKoo Aunties. My Cousin Doesn't Get In From Alabama Until 10:50am In The Morning So... We're Gonna Spend The Nite In Houston & Head To Beaumont(The City Where Mah Fam Is) After We Get Her In The Morning.

The Flight Was Smooth... Nonstop. Just The Way I Like It. All That Landing & Flyin & Landing Again Shit Is For The Birds. I'm Good. Met Some Nice Folks On The Flight. Made Some Connections... Possible New Career Moves lol. All Kinda Shit. So It Was A Good Day Spent @ LAX/Airborne/Houston-Hobby Airport.

Really Looking Forward To Spending 4th of July Weekend w/ Mah Fam & Mah Cousins. It Should DEFINENTLY Pop Off Ya Dig! Clubbin... Food... Amazingness Basically. LoL. Me & Mah Cousins Here Are Pretty Damn Close, Which Is Surprising Seeing As How We Only See Each Other A Week Or Two Out The Year. These Mah Niggas Tho! So Yea... I'm Excited. And Its Mah Great Granny's 80th Birthday This Weekend & We Throwin Her A Surprise Party... That Should Crack Too... Well, All Things Considered... lol

Ooooh! And Then I Can't Wait To Get Mah Hands On Sum Crawfish... Sonic Burger... Waffle House... Good Southern Cookin...
I'm Such A Cow. LoL. But I Love It!

Anyways... Its Pushing 1am CST... & I Definently Have Been Up The Past 48 Hours. Time For Some SLEEP!
Catch Ya Laterz Bloggers. Uno.

Playin Catch Up

OK Ummmm... This Was Originally A Video Blog But...

I Definently Shot It With My Face Not On Camera.
WTF. I'm A Retard.

. . . Moving On . . .

I Know This Is Late(3 Weeks To Be Exact), But Since I Hyped It Up In My Past Few Blogs I Felt The Need To Let It Be Know...

THE FUCKING "GLOW IN THE DARK" CONCERT WAS FUCCIN AWESOME!!!!

Here We Are 3 Weeks Later & I Probably Think Of It Everyday Or Every Other Day At Least.
Lupe Fiasco Killed His Set And He Was The Fuccing OPENING Act. Like It Was Good From START To FINISH.

I Don't Think I've Ever Rocked Out Like A Rockstar Till N.E.R.D. got on stage. THEM NIGGAS... lol. They Somethin Else. Thanks To Them, I Now Lead A Spaztastic Existance.
"SEEING SOUNDS" in stores now. Cop It. U Won't Be Disappointed!

And We All Knew Rihanna Was Gonna Kill Her Show. It Seemed Shorter Than The Other 2 Opening Acts, But It Was Still Cool. The "Don't Stop The Music" Performance Was Pretty Hott. She Added The Sexy Into The Show, Which Was Coo.

And Then We Have KANYE. Kanye Is KING of Performance. Like, He NEVER FAILS To Put On A Damn Good Show. From Start To Finish Just Perfect. And Of Course Lauren & I Are 5th Row. We Can See The Sweat Dripping From His Face.
Yea It's JUST That Serious.
Stronger Performed Live Is A Masterpiece And I Advise Everyone To See It. So Dope.
And He Had A Lil Mini Speech At The End Of The Concert. Like, You Think He's An Arrogant Asshole. He's Not. He's Just Confidently Doing His Job. After I Left Staples Center June 7th, 2008 @ Midnight... Lets Just Say I'm Now Pro-Kanye.

Good Fuccin Times...

Anyway, On To More Recent Events.

My Job Sux. I Hate It. I'm Looking For Another One... It's Not Going Well. Fuck.
I Really Wanted To Go Out-Of-State For College... Mom Changed Her Mind And Is Against Me Going And Doesn't Wanna Finance It. She Sucks For That & Now I'm Like, HELLA Disappointed. Not Trippin Tho. I'm Gonna Do Me & I'm Gonna Be Doin Me In a MAJOR WAY Very Soon. Stay Tuned...
And I Definently Have A Mini-Family Reunion In Beaumont, TX On Friday... And My Plane Leaves @ 4pm 2morrow (Wednesday)... And I Have Yet To Begin Packing.
And I Work Today @3pm... Mind U It's Like 3:20am NOW... lol. I Still Got Shoppin To Do And It's Just Like... Shit Isn't Coming Together At All.
FUUUUUUUCK!!!! Why Am I SO Last Minute!?

I Dunno.
Don't Really Care.

But Anyways, Like I Juss Said... Just Playin Catch Up With Y'All... I Promise To Post More Often Tho Folks. So Until Next Time, "B-Eazy"!

P.S.
The Long Awaited Sequel To Best Selling Novel, "The Coldest Winter Ever", By Sister Souljah To Be Released Oct. '08!!! Like I'm Fuccin CHEESIN Yall! Anybody Who Read That Book KNOWS How Big A Deal This Is!
It's Titled "Midnight" And I'll Assume It'll Be From His Point Of View This Time Around. Really Stoked About That! Let's See How This Unfolds Folks!

Oh & I Still Haven't Seen "Wanted"... Wonder How Good That Is?
And Can't Wait For "Hancock" This Weekend Wit The Cuzzos In Texas!!! Yea A Good Week Coming Up!

Damn.

Only 20 Years Old Man.

20 Fuckin Years Ago.

Never New Life Could Sux So Much. In Such A Brief Amount Of Time.

Different Kinda Pain. Totally Uncharted Waters. Gotta Grow Up. Quick.

I Love Somebody A Whole Lot. And I Hope You Never Forget It.

And Yea I'm Depressed. As Hell.

Hopefully 2morrow's Concert Will Put Me In A Good Mood. If Only For A Few Hours.

But Yea... Life. Sux.

Thoughts

OK, it's definently been a long week. And it's only Thursday. lol. It's like 3am and I was about 2 go 2 sleep but I decided to stay up a lil longer and give a blog cuz I haven't been on here in a few days or whatever. Anyways, moving on.

I had a long talk wit somebody who's really important to me today. Somebody I love with everything in me. And this talk has made me feel a lot better about who I am and the things going on in our lives right now. I got a better understanding of whats going on between us & I think that everythings gonna be alright.

Off of that shit, tonight was my last nite of work till AT LEAST Sunday or Monday. Which is awesome. Cause I was for damn sure getting sick of Marshalls and them lame ass customers. It's just been hell and I can't wait till I find somethin better and give them niggas the deuces. Marshalls can seriously blow me right about now. Like, real shit. lol

KANYE WEST!!! Saturday June 7th, 2008 @ Staples Center!!!!

I can't wait! Going with Lauren, my favorite scorpio ever. She introduced me to the wonderful world of concerts. She took me to my first concert ever which was the "Late Registration Tour" wit Kanye, Keyshia Cole & Fantasia... so this is sorta like a homecoming. I hear it's the hottest concert around and one of the best in years so I'm hella excited. Rihanna, Lupe & N.E.R.D will be there so that's pretty hot. Looking forward to it. I'll keep yall updated with how that turns out & such...

Oh. I met sexiness recently. The sexiest thing I've ever seen. And I love it. LOL

Goodnite!

Its Just One Of Them Days...

You know what. This sux. After a pretty pheonomenal week, Saturday gets here and I'm really really really irritated. And I have 0 clue why. I mean, I had a bad nights sleep but that's over & done with. After an initial bump, my morning went fine. But for whatever reason I juss feel stuck. Like, today is wacker than wack. It seems like the Bad Mood Energies from the depths of Hell have surfaced and decided 2 take refuge around me.

Damn.

I juss need a reason to smile real quick. Oh wait, hold on just a second. I think I found that reason...

I'll Be Off Work In 2 Hours!!!

And I don't have to return until Monday, which is still too soon. And its a Holiday. But shit, bring on the Holiday pay! Then I work again on Tuesday, but I think I'll be calling off... Six Flags & X2 are callin my name. Hmmm... then my Birthday's next Sunday (Big 20!) & Kanye West The Following Saturday. Maybe I do have some good things to look forward to. Lifes looking right in a major way right now. Minus one thing that's leaving me for a bit... hopefully it returns...

Four Simple Words That Completely Ruined My Day...

Maybe I should slow it down a bit. I dunno. This is a new situation. Something totally different than I'm used to. Not gonna go into detail but... I haven't been this confused in quite some time. Is this a waste of time... decent investment? Shit I don't know. I just wish these answers were easier to come by. I wish the future was more apparent and obvious. I don't like guessin games & I've never been one who knew how to "paitently wait".

Four words have pretty much thrown my whole day & psyche off. But I mean, I'm a big boy. I can take care of myself. And whatever happens after this moment. I will be 100% responsible for it's outcome, good or bad. Nobody to blame or thank but myself. And I'm cool with that. It's just this feeling of uncertainty. Not knowing whats gonna happen. It's all slightly overwhelming. Don't know what I'm gonna do just yet. But... I hope whatever I decide, I won't have to look back 6months from now pissed off thinking, "wtf did u do that for".

Only time will tell.

Life. Love. Insects. Etc. LOL

So... I have a feeling that my life is definently about to change in a major way. Life's funny that way. In the way that it never stops, something new is always happening. Whether welcomed or unwelcomed you can't stop living it. And it's just a trip. Anyways, May 20th 2008 was a good day. Not quite sure why... but it was. It made me think. And yall know I like to think! lol

But yea... I'm a pretty happy camper right now. Only thing that would make me happier is hurrying up into June. My Birthday is on the 1st! Then Lauren & I are hittin up that Kanyizzle Concert on the 7th! Good Times! Pretty excited about my life right now. So I mean, stay tuned & I'll keep yall posted blogers! Laterz!

STUPID. STUPID. STUPID.

So I've Decided That... Dating Is Stupid. Like, Really Stupid. Nobody's On The Same Page. Everybody Is Trying To "Run Game" And Treat The Relationship (Or Lack Thereof) Like It's A Fuckin Game Of Chess. Why Can't We All Be Real, Be Vurnable & Just Be Honest Without Ourselves & Each Other About What We Really Want & Expect. Things Would Be So Much Easier This Way....



But U Know What? I've Decided That I Don't Want Nor Need A GF. I'm A Nice Romantic Kinda Nigga Tho. I Need Somebody 2 Hold. Somebody 2 Tell My Dreams & My Fears To. I Like 2 Feel Needed/Wanted. So I've Decided....





I NEED A PUPPY.



That's Right. A Puppy. Puppies Are Always There For You & They Loyal 2 A Fault. Got My Back 100%. I'm Goin Dog Shoppin Next Week. Can't Wait. LoL

Iron Man, Etc.

So Yea... Lauren's Back. Woo Hoo!!!!

Saw Iron Man. It Was The Shit Point Blank. Well, The Parts I Stayed Awake For. LoL

I Guess It's Cool To Post Up In The 24hr Fitness Parking Lot & Stare @ Folks Now?

Darren Isn't Too Smart.

And It's 3:30am. I'm Tired.

Nite Folks. LoL

Ventin On Relationships...

Well, u all knew it was coming. lol

No blog is complete without venting on relationships. Whether they just be thoughts, personal life experiences, hopes, dreams or opinions... Relationships seem to be on everyone's top 10 list of shit to talk about.

And I guess while listening to some bitter ass songs today about having loved & lost, old feelings surfaced and I began to think about this thing we call "L.O.V.E." and why we allow it to come in and destroy our lives. LoL

It's like, we long for it... we want it... we crave that shit. Why? I'll never know. And even for those few people who, like myself, never go looking for it... that shit creeps up on u and sends u for a loop. Like, I don't get it... I don't see how you can just be single & happy as hell one day, just loving life... then outta the blue some idiot bumps into you and changes your life as you know it, forever.

Yea the first few weeks/months are bliss. Ecstacy and Euphoria to the 10th degree and you think you're in love. Hell you may actually be in love. You just wanna be everything to this person... you wanna love him/her(unisex, no homo) with everything in you and just never let go. Then one day she or he gonna flip the script and stop taking your calls, never responds to txt, or sleeps with your best friend or some other trifilin shit and your world is crushed. Like, not crushed, but CRUSHED. And now you're left with a cold cracked hollow piece of shit that you once called a heart.

And it's like, I don't think people today are anything like the people of years ago. The people that actually realized that relationships aren't all about YOU, but they're about two individuals working together for a greater good & peace of mind. They go around acting like you don't matter, doin whatever with whoever and coming back to you like nothing's different. And when the bitch get caught, she/he flips the script on you like YOU were somehow WRONG for giving a damn about them.

Like, I don't get it... I believed in everything ya did & everything you said. When you'd say "I love you" and when you said I was different from other niggas... Like I actually stood out & I just wasn't another DICK. I believed in all of that... But maybe that was my fault... I dunno.

I used to wonder why people would say a person has wronged them in the past and that's why they don't deal with relationships now. The reasons they say they wouldn't trust anyone. I guess I understand now. There are a lot of assholes in the world that really don't give a fuck about you. Nobody is really required to give two shits about you or your feelings. So watch out for yourself first and foremost cuz no bitch/nigga is gonna do it for you. Real talk.

So next time you're with somebody and shit seems too good to be true... just remember:

IT IS 2008. TWO THOUSAND. AND EIGHT.

If it looks/sounds too good to be true, it probably is. You can't always trust the people you want to. Not saying to be an ass or walk around with a chip on your shoulder mad at the world... just stop bein so nieve and beliveing everything someone tells you... I dunno I'm kinda rambling now and it's become more of a personal venting post, lol, but it's MY blog and I'll be pissed if I wanna be... lol. But yea... relationships and love and shit is for the birds. Fuck that shit... I'm good.

Heh maybe I'm trippin... maybe it's just some miscommunication goin on between the two sexes... Either way, just somethin to ponder. Vent session over...


Disclaimer: This isn't about any particular person... more or less just about experiences I've had/experiences of friends or shit I've noticed... So nobody ask who I'm talkin about or gettin pissed off thinking it's you. Unless of course you actually did some fucked up shit to me... lol. But it's ok, I forgive you for it. LoL

WTF Were We Thinking....

Like I know this is random.

And it probably doesn't make any sense.

But I Would REALLY like to know what we were thinking when we all decided to happily wear clothes that read FUBU across the front. Like, that shit has me like, hella perplexed.

Nigga, it was called FU. BU.

!!!!!!FUBU!!!!!

Nigga, that is like two letters away from BUBU(Booboo)!!!! C'mon now! I for one, rebuke my child hood warddrobe in the name of JESUS!!! Cause I KNOW Jesus was lookin down in shame. He done taught us better... lol. Look @ That Jersey. LOOK AT IT!!!!! And folks was walkin around sportin that with pride. PRIDE NIGGA. LOL. Glad Them Days Is Looooong Gone...

But yea... I just had to get that out. I'm overly ashamed. But oh well. I was 10-14. I didn't know any better... lol. So I think I get a pass.

I'm goin 2 bed now. Later Bloggers... lol

Being A Kid In The 90's Was Cool Because...

WE HAD THE FUCKING POWER RANGERS!!!!!!!

If u don't remember this, I don't know wtf you were doing with your life. I really don't. I mean... the ORIGINAL Power Rangers. Jason, Kimberly, Billy, Trini(R.I.P.) & Zack? Come on now... Nothin beats the original rangers! Especially when Tommy got on board, and everyone just knew Tommy & Kimberly were meant to get married & have lil ranger babies & shit.

Man... good times! I leave u with the VERY first Episode of Power Rangers which originally aired on August 28th, 1993 on Fox 11.

P.S. I defiently just had a Double Double Animal Style w/ Xtra Pickles & No Tomatoes... French Fries & a Medium Root Beer. I'm In Heaven... lol. Goodnight.

Stripping DJs...? Had 2 Take A Piss, Nigga Had A Curl Reunion

Well readers... It's about 3:35am and I'm sitting on my coach. Bored... lol. Should be asleep, but we all know Brandon D. Hayes is an *INSOMNIAC* right? LoL

Just walked in from like the longest Saturday I've had in a LONG time. Where do I begin? Well let's see...

I knew I had to work today, but Imy was having a kickback... as was Richard. And I KNEW I had to show up to at least one of these events. I end up leaving work early to go grab Ryan and go to Imy's since Rich ain't answerin his fone. (Come 2 think of it, I just aimed him askin what happened but he's yet to respond. OH WELL!)

So I got kinda "sick"(lol) and left work early to go home and show, get dressed & pick up Ryan. We get to Imy's and see all tha homies... Even ran into some of my fav PALI folks. Ammo was there... as was Ayinde & Donovan and others. But like... We have a problem.

The DJ, who is also a *STRIPPER* had a "prior" engagement and was running late. And niggas was arriving gettin impatient and shit. So in the mean time, blunts was rolled, alcohol was poured and niggas just started choppin it up in front of Imy's crib.

Stripper/DJ calls & cancels and leaves Imy like, high & dry. She's pissed, people came to party and basically left. It was kinda sad how that happened, but the few of us that was left did the usual and took it to the living room. Jokes for days.

And anyone who knows Imy & crew pretty much know about the kickbacks in the living room... Fun times. Except for her bringing up me getting drunk in TN & trying to rape a dog named London... lol. Oh but we all love the whole "Had to take a piss, Nigga had a curl" references. LoL

Then crazy trips down Crenshaw for some jack in the box, on E... madness. Just walked in the crib and probably finna pass out. But before I do, I leave this video in reminder to Nov. '07's Nashville trip to visit Lauren. Remember this folks? It was goin DOWN! LoL

Night Folks...

Thinkin Out Loud...

Wassup & welcome to my blog. I've decided I'm gonna start posting here daily and talkin to yall and shit. Juss so yall can keep up with the inner workings of mah mind. Somedays I'll ramble about nothing. Other times I'll juss state what I'm thinkin. Somedays I'll say how my day went. All depends on how *I* feel cuz its MY blog.

Get Wit ;) lol

Well Incase Some Of You Didn't Know, I've Been Thinking of Moving Away To College. I Dunno If Its Gonna Happen or Not But The Odds Are Gettin Slightly Better. I Was Accepted To A School In Texas And I'm Probably Gonna Go Ahead & Go.

Like... Besides The Fact That I've ALWAYS Wanted to Attend An HBCU, I Feel Like Nothin's Keepin Me Here In LA. There's Very Little Here In LA That Is Worth Me Staying. Over The Past 6 or 7 Years I Think Its Safe To Say I've Seen More Shit Than Anyone Should Have 2 See or Go Through. And Juss... I Dunno.

Don't Really Wanna Turn This Into a Rant or Complaint But, I Dunno How I Feel Anymore. I Was Pretty Happy To Get My 1st Acceptance Letter But Now I Feel Like I May Be Punkin Out. Like My Reasons For Leaving Are No Longer To Get An Education or a Black College Experience. Its Just Startin To Feel Like I'm Runnin... Runnin From Everything & Everyone. Instead of Staying And Facing My Problems Like A MAN.

Either Case, I Don't Feel Like I Currently Possess What I Need To Face Those Problems. And Maybe If I Go, Start Fresh & Become The Man I'm Meant To Be On My Own Terms, I Can Actually Overcome The Hurdles That Are Blocking My Progress Here...

I Dunno... Just Had To Ramble A Bit. Get That Off My Chest. Been Thinkin About That For A Minute Now. But Anyway, Welcome 2 Tha Blog Folks. Catch Yall Laterz...